Back into traveling.
If there was any pause...7 years ago I came to Mother Amazon, meeting myself in so many new ways. Feeling at home, energized, in love, peaceful and free. The freedom of meeting others with a smile, with warmth in the bellies, feet in the sand, sun in the horizon line. Home. What happened there completely changed my life in ways i couldn't foresee...It came from following this yearning to travel to distant places, to meet indigenous tribes, something which could appear to be cool for a westerner sitting at home watching National Geo. Oh yeah, i want to go there. But there I was. Amazonia. Home somehow. Giving space to be met in this inner place where there is remoteness, freedom, difference, and at the same time such familiarity. There Ayahuasca came into my path, in ways that i won't describe now. Let's say I was not the same anymore. Life was not the same anymore. One year afterwards, after I finished my Medicine degree and quitted a life as a doctor, I went traveling to India. One way ticket, it ended being a trip of 13 months, in search of mySelf. Letting go of all the conditioning, trying to figure out who was there beyond all the cultural and educational conditioning, beyond all the layers i had been put on, where was a life worth living and truer. Auroville, many workshops of yoga, meditation, ayurvedic massage, Reiki, Vipasana, while photographing and writing back home, this time closer to the dream of being a real National Geo photojournalist! Met mySelf in the mountains, in the faces and words of so many inspiring people, both locals and fellow travelers, communities, showing me different facets of this same world. Again, won't dwell much in this now. After India, the journeying went deeper and more inner. Back at home, realized myself into dancing, and once again changed "career path", if there is such a thing. The body and movement opened myself to my own Self, bringing up the most passionate moments, as well as all the shadow sides that hadn't shown up before. Dancing, exploring contemporary dance, contact improvisation, venturing myself into community time in Tamera in Portugal, and again meeting new worlds and possibilities. Growing in awareness of relationships, of what it means to be a woman, how to be true in contact and actually live a life that is true, real, present, loving with other human beings gave answers to the very early question in my life of what does it mean to be a person. Still traveling, or journeying one may say, as I was in Portugal, but in a global community, meeting many souls from all over the world who are also committed to do the inner and outer work that is needed, and know that both worlds must come together. Seeing a new world that is not a distant dream anymore, but one that exists, here, in each heart that dares to open and follow its deepest longings, in each step that one takes to materialize what one believes in. Creation. And co-creation, as there is no bigger joy and fulfillment than meeting others in the discovery of self and working to live a life that is worth living, in full connection with oneself, others and the planet.
The love for changing consciousness through movement took me to London, to study Dance/ Movement Psychotherapy, and to find another beloved community, 5 rhythms and movement medicine. Home again. And very much inner journeying again.
So now, after some months of resting and integrating back at home in Portugal, nurturing and healing the roots, giving value to what was before, I take flight once again.
More rooted, more in myself, with a readiness to be myself and with myself in every moment.
The time is now.
But somehow I feel time gained a different meaning. Yes, I had moments of Eternity before. In India, in ayahuasca sessions, in making love, in the normality of the extraordinary daily life. Yes, we are catching up with Nature again, and reconnecting to our natural seasons and cycles. But what i mean now is different. It has a continuity to it, that exists independently of where I am. An inner time? What I know is that it has to do with the unraveling of the soul, following what is true and present at each moment. During these days, sometimes I don't even leave the house, but so much happens inside. Worlds are created and worlds are destroyed. It seems that I take a flight on the 6th January. Peru.
And there I will be, just as I am here, and for sure also in a very different way. Presence, yes. Independently of where I will go, which places I will visit and when, of having a flight back in two months time, life is happening now. "There is all the time in the world", wisely reminded by a dear friend some years ago. So this journey won't really end in two months...somehow it is only (re)starting.
And there is excitement about it. Feeling like I am growing in love, in acceptance and understanding, looking forward for my part in creation. Deciding to be ready. For what is. For what I put my attention in. For what I chose to create. And realizing it already exists, it is about materializing. And celebrating, and embodying it! YES.

(thought of not writing a date in any post, but as it is a blog, it does it for yourself. Guess this kind of time has a structuring effect, not bad ;))